Favorite Shit

Lorna Shore
Immortal (2020)

Lorna Shore
...And I Return to Nothingness (2021)

Carach Angren
Frankensteina Strataemontanus (2020)

Tool
Lateralus (2001)

Devin Townsend
Ziltoid the Omniscient (2007)

Devin Townsend
Ocean Machine (1997)

Devin Townsend
Addicted! (2009)

Devin Townsend
Ghost (2011)

Devin Townsend
Epicloud (2012)

Devin Townsend
Z² (2014)

Devin Townsend
Lightwork (2022)

AIHVHIA
Planet

Electric Light Orchestra
Time (1981)

The Protomen
Act II: The Father of Death (2009)

Lord Huron
Strange Trails (2015)

Daft Punk
Random Access Memories (2013)

Neil Young
Harvest Moon (1992)

Alice in Chains
Jar of Flies (1994)

Dead Man's Bones
Dead Man's Bones(2008)

Songs: Ohia
Magnolia Electric Co. (2003)

Sigur Rós
Ágætis byrjun (1999)

Rammstein
Rammstein (2019)

Disturbed
The Sickness (2000)

System of a Down
Mezmerize (2005)

Innerpartysystem
Never Be Content EP (2011)

Leonard Cohen
You Want It Darker (2016)

Marty Robbins
Gunfighter Ballads and Trail Songs (1959)

Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds
Boatman's Call (1997)

Patsy Cline
Showcase (1961)

My Chemical Romance
Danger Days: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys (2010)

Scissor Sisters
Scissor Sisters (2004)

Outkast
Stankonia (2000)

Def Leppard
Hysteria (1987)

Deftones
Saturday Night Wrist (2006)

Dethklok
Dethalbum I (2007)

Sixx:A.M.
This is Gonna Hurt (2011)

Hollywood Undead
Notes from the Underground (2012)

HEALTH
Rat Wars (2024)

Limp Bizkit
Chocolate Starfish and the Hotdog Flavored Water (2000)

Squirrel Nut Zippers
Hot (1996)

Skindred
Babylon (2004)

Ice Nine Kills
Welcome to Horrorwood: The Silver Scream II (2021)

Diablo Swing Orchestra
Pandora's Pinata (2012)

Sepultura
Roots (1996)

Buckethead & Friends
Enter the Chicken (2005)

Wednesday 13
Horrifier (2022)

Hansel und Gretel
Scheissmessiah (2004)

I've got so so so many more albums and discographies I love. These are just the albums I've gotten obsessed with to the point of memorizing in their entirety. If you'd like to browse my spotify playlists for individual songs I like, here they are!

METAL PLAYLIST
DISCO PLAYLIST
COUNTRY PLAYLIST
RETROWAVE PLAYLIST
(ACTUAL) OLDIES PLAYLIST
CLASSIC ROCK PLAYLIST
UNSETTLING MUSIC TO FALL ASLEEP TO
MISC. TEENY BOPPER PLAYLIST

Favorite Characters

Sadie Adler (Red Dead Redemption 2)

Her 1800s butch lesbian swag hit me like a ton of bricks and fully cemented my sexuality in 2018. She's so fucking HOT oh my god. I would [REDACTED]. I mean. Who said that.
Fr though Sadie Adler begins the game as a grieving widow dependant entirely on the kindness of a bunch of misfit outlaws and progresses through the story with one of the strongest character arcs ever (besides the main character, Arthur's). She harnesses her grief and goes from a "damsel" to a pants-wearing, gunslinging, ridiculously competent bounty hunter over the course of the game. While these qualities alone would make an interesting, albiet two-dimensional character, what makes Sadie stand out is her camaraderie with Arthur, John, and the other women of the gang. She may be hell-bent on revenge, but she's still a fundamentally kind person. As the game progresses, she becomes a provider to those weaker than her, looking out for Arthur in his last days and ensuring safety for Tilly, Abigail, Jack, and John. She's a knight in shining armor to the other characters and saying her butch lesbian swag is her best quality borders on reductive (if still true). In conclusion, AWOOGA.

GLaDOS (Portal 1 & 2)

GLaDOS is my favorite character of all time. Her backstory, her belittling comments, her brattiness, her design?? Ough. I adore everything about her and if I had the chance I would smash. Hashtag milf nation.

Moder (The Ritual)

THAT'S MY WIFE! She's honestly the hottest horror movie monster I've ever seen. Maaaybe after the xenomorph. She impales people on trees and has a cult of worshippers who may or may not be immortal. I'd worship that too, like DAMN. Number 1 milf material here.
wife

Medic (TF2)

Medic is the pinnacle of the mad scientist archetype with the perfect dose of comedy and brilliant voice acting. AND he's gay as fuck. I'm really REALLY glad I got back into TF2 just in time to watch his VA proclaim in-character his passionate love for the Heavy Weapons Guy. Now that the comic is concluded, I'm somewhat disappointed by the lack of screen time our mercs (including medic and heavy) get, but it looks like our two lovebirds are still together, and for that I am grateful. gotta love this crazy motherfucker and his baboon child.

Ellen Ripley (Alien franchise)

She's literally the perfect character. The competence, the horrific trauma, the lesbianism, the anticapitalist ideology, the forklift certification. She's got it all. Her sexual tension with Call in Alien: Resurrection is also top tier.

Lt. Vasquez (Aliens 1986)

She's one of the few notable butch women in media, and I cherish her for it. She's also a dickhead but I can ignore it because she's hot. I admit I rewatch Aliens frequently just for her. (sidenote: Can we PLEASE bring back sweaty butch women in tank tops in scifi movies? At this point they're an endangered species)

Colonel Douglas Mortimer (For a Few Dollars More)

CUNTY OLD MAN!!!! I've recently become obsessed with Lee Van Cleef and I've watched 14 of his spaghetti westerns; one of his best roles is this one, as Col. Douglas Mortimer in 1965's "For a Few Dollars More". It's remembered as a Clint Eastwood movie (indeed, he's the central character) but Lee Van Cleef's performance as a seasoned bounty hunter and insanely good shootist just steals the spotlight in my opinion. He's a fearless bounty hunter on a quest for revenge who teams up with The Man With No Name in one of the most insane meet-cutes I've ever seen in my life, featuring boot-scuffing, hat-shooting, mutual smoking, extended eye contact, and of course, comparing each others guns. The sheer swagger that this old man displays puts his bisexual cunt levels off the charts. Look at him. Gotdamn. He's literally the exact type of butch lesbian I'm trying to be.

Lee Van Cleef with cutsey babygirl stickers

Spongebob Squarepants

Honestly one of the only characters that never fail to put a smile on my face. I grew up with the show, everything abt it means the world to me.

Starscream (Transformers franchise)

Starscream is the quintessential transfem that the writers didn't intend to write as transfem. In all iterations her defining feature is how treacherous she is and I love herrrr. Will I get a complete animated story arc focused on her and her alone? Probably not. But I can dream.
What I like most about her is the fact that she's the most batshit self destructive character in what's usually a pretty lowkey cast, and given a competent enough writing staff, that can lead to so much depth and character introspection. Although her Transformers Prime version will always be a fav, the fact that she was always used as a punching bag by the narrative kills me. She had a perfect setup for a redemption arc and then season three happened and. Ugh. I'm still mad about the wasted potential. Plus her DESIGN in tfp???? Fuck man! They were given jack shit to work with from the Bay movie designs and they knocked it out of the park.

V (V for Vendetta)

I was already a socialist when I read this comic, but thanks to V's transgender swag and impeccable music taste, now I'm an anarchist. V matters less as a character and more as an idea, but he's written with so much camp it's impossible not to love the guy. I have some beef with his movie portrayal, but narrative stupidity aside, the scene where he's making breakfast in a frilly pink apron lives in my head rent free.

Postal Dude (POSTAL)

NEWEST BLORBO ALERT! The Postal games have been eating at my brain lately, and Postal 1 Dude has been at the forefront. This schizophrenic motherfucker has no backstory and no personal details aside from the scant insights we learn from his voice lines and journal entries. I really adore a violent character who doesn't tell you who they are, and suffers immensely on top of that. I grew up loving the bygone media landscape of late 90s dark action heroes; is it any wonder P1 Dude ticks off all my favorite character boxes? He's even got a trench coat for god's sake.

Pickles the Drummer (Metalocalypse)

Transmasc, gay, balding, addict, a midwesterner, and stupid as all hell. Ironically he's based off of my favorite musician, Devin Townsend. What's not to like? His role as "band mom" in Doomstar Requiem and Army of the Doomstar was SO fitting, and his chemistry with his bandmates is always entertaining as hell.

Alucard (Hellsing & Hellsing Ultimate)

Alucard is THE agender lesbian. To me. I adore how uncanny and dropdead gorgeous they are. Plus the cool shades. It's like the distilled essence of the 90s Vampire trope. Hellsing Abridged is my favorite take on the character :) Get that bitch a cannon.

Queen Akasha (Queen of the Damned)

My mom watched this a lot when I was a kid and it definitely awakened something in me. Sure the movie kinda sucked but I imagined myself in that rose petal bath scene with her before I even knew what being gay WAS. RIP to Aaliyah, the absolute music legend that she was. That scene where she eats some guy's heart is sheer perfection.

Nightshade (Transformers: Earthspark)

NIGHTSHADE!!! I relate to Nightshade so fucking hard; the autism, the gender, the campy goth proclivities. There's literally nothing I don't like about them. Every time I remember the line, "Nonbinary? What a wonderful word for a wonderful experience." I cry a little. Still can't believe this character is real.

HAL9000 (2001: A Space Odyssey)

Hal isn't a robot I necessarily relate to but he sure as shit is one I empathize with. His & Dave's character arcs over the novels just make my heart melt. The little guy didn't do anything wrong he's just a little meow meow.

MEGATRON (Transformers franchise)

Megatron is one of those instantly compelling characters no matter what iteration you're talking about; you've got G1 Megs' comedic saturday morning cartoon villian style, IDW Megs' communist-turned-dictator backstory that feeds into a prison abolitionist tale of redemption, justice, and friendship; TFP's near tragic story of a low caste bot turned gladiator overthrowing an unjust system whose revolution was only fuelled by ego and anger; and Earthspark's G1 continuation wherein Megatron sees just how pointless the millions of years of war is and resigns himself to unite with his former enemies in the name of peace. Literally this character just never misses. As for designs, Alex Milne's IDW will always be the difinitive Megatron to me. <3

HONORABLE MENTIONS

Eris from Sinbad: Legend of the Seven Seas

Raggedy Ann from Raggedy Ann and Andy Musical Adventure

Preminger from Barbie as the Princess and the Pauper

Clopin Trouillefou from The Hunchback of Notre Dame (1996)

Solid Snake (David) from the Metal Gear Solid series

Favorite Ships

So good it's practically canon.

Tf2 is a Valve game released in 2007 and has been free to play since 2011. For almost 20 years, the Heavy Weapons Guy and the Medic have been making out sloppy style on the regular, both ingame and in fanon. The first place I was exposed to the brilliance of this ship was actually the tf2chan forum and youtube comments but I quickly abandoned those for the thriving hub of culture and pornography that was the tf2 Tumblr community at the time. Much has changed since my first introduction to the fandom in 2015 (RIP all the art lost in the great Purge of 2018) but Heavy and Medic are still the beating heart of the tf2 fandom. Their ship name is more commonly just "heavymedic" but "Red Oktoberfest" (named after the achievement) is also used.
The reason these two are so widely shipped together is genuinely the actual physical gameplay: playing as a tank like Heavy, it works in the team's favor to have a pocket Medic. That's how it started anyway. Heavy's voice lines to his Medic are also really sweet; "I love this doctor!" being the most obvious. The animated short "Meet the Medic" also added fuel to the fire; featuring a prolonged abdominal surgery wherein Medic and Heavy engage in joyful banter and exchange eye contact while Medic holds Heavy's heart in his hands... It's not difficult to see the chemistry between the two. Heavy encourages Medic's god-complex obsessions, and Medic gets the hunkiest lab rat he could possibly ask for. It's a win-win.

This ship also stands in the strange position of being considered canon by what began as a very homophobic playerbase of cishet dudes, floating in a half-joking bromance limbo until the last ~10 years, when a rapidly diversifying playerbase became unafraid to examine their relationship outside of snide quips and disrespectful jokes. It's really cool to see even the character's voice actors openly embrace this silly relationship.

PROPAGANDA

Not that I need further evidence, but see also: Robin Atkin Downes (Medic VA) confirming the Heavy/Medic ship; Valve's official Heavy/Medic pair specific achievements (x, x, x, and x, to name a few) ; This comic cover for official comic #6; This adorable promo for the Meet Your Match update; The banner image for Source Filmmaker; and the coup de grâce, this sexually suggestive heavymedic art by Valve's in-house comic artist Makani. (It holds a special place in my heart.)

On a personal note, Heavymedic is my longest standing OTP (over a decade! Good god I'm old.) I just think these two compliment each other so nicely gameplay and character-wise. They're both batshit insane, but Heavy brings so much mellow sweetness to Medic's effervescent personality and deep passions. There are so many gaps in their "canon" personalities that it's a genuine treat seeing how they're expanded upon by any given writer, artist, or animator. It's just. So good. Look at this crazy german cunt with his whipped russian boyfriend. They wear matching jammies for god's sake.

IN CONCLUSION: DAMN, THESE BITCHES GAY! GOOD FOR THEM! GOOD FOR THEM.

Unstoppable force, meet immovable object. Now kiss.

THIS GIANT FACILITY IS IN LOVE WITH A HUMAN WOMAN WHO WANTS NOTHING MORE THAN TO ESCAPE. For real though this ship means so fucking much to me. Chell is a mute protagonist in the Portal games fostering a lingering indifference to/disdain for the giant supercomputer, GLaDOS, haunted by her own ghost in the machine and finding herself disastrously in love with Chell. The story of the Portal games is essentially a long lesbian breakup, interspersed with one-sided banter that belies GLaDOS’ deep-seeded need for attention and reaction, going steadily more obsessed as the one person left alive in the facility refuses to provide her with either. Hell, she refuses to even die when GLaDOS tells her to. The nerve of this woman! Chell is only in this to survive and get the fuck out, and it makes for such juicy character interaction. There’s so much room for interpretation for this relationship: toxic yuri? You got it! Tragic breakup? That's already the canon story! Fluffy “pretend all that never happened” type shit? Yes please! Contrived comeback after the canon events of the story? Don’t mind if I do!!! Give me the chelldos ship any way you like. I am down so bad for them.

PROPAGANDA

THIS DELICIOUS POST: "In portal, glados forces you to form an attachment to the companion cube, then incinerate it. Shortly thereafter, she tries to incinerate you. Which could mean nothing"

Four minutes of GLaDOS' more... Risque voice lines that were cut from the final Portal 2 game.

(FORMER) OUTLAWS IN LOVE...

Sadie and Abigail are THE ship for me. The one where I realized I was well and truly unhinged about two fictional characters who barely interact. IN MY DEFENSE. Look them. Their tragic romance potential is just off the charts. Sadie Adler is a grieving widow unable to move on from the trauma she experienced at the hands of an outlaw gang, and Abigail Roberts-Marston is a young mother struggling to keep her family together because her husband is a fucking idiot trapped in the same cycle of violence Sadie’s been forced into. Sadie seeks comfort from Abigail a few times in the story, but as it progresses she grows increasingly able to stand on her own; her story arc in the game comes to a point where she’s the one protecting Abigail from the gang’s downfall. What if the grieving widow and the overtaxed mother found comfort in each other more and more often? What if Sadie cracks the stone that’s grown around her heart for Abigail? What if Abigail finds the support she needs in Sadie, convinces her away from the path of self destruction she’s been on so long? What if Abigail realizes with horror that she’s gone and fallen in love with another person so used to violence they don’t know how else to interact with the world??? AT THE END OF RDR1 DOES ABIGAIL IN HER GRIEF TURN FULLY TO SADIE, HER ONLY FRIEND, THE ONLY ONE WHO KNOWS WHERE SHE CAME FROM??

PROPAGANDA

THE WORLD NEEDS MORE BUTCH/FEMME LESBIAN RELATIONSHIPS. Actually the world needs more butches in general but Sadie Adler does a good job in filling the role for now. LOOK AT THEMMMM I LOVE THEM

"Will you ride with me?" "Always."

Charles Smith and Arthur Morgan of rdr2 fame have SO much chemistry. They're literally the ship that got me into fanfiction writing and are far and away my most read relationship tag on AO3. Hell, I even devoted HOURS of my life to figuring out how to draw human men properly so I could more accurately draw them kissing. They took ahold of my brain in 2019 and didn't let go for a solid four years. Their comraderie is subtle, but in a game so devoted to Arthur's personal isolation amongst a group of 20 outlaws he considers family, Charles gets a lot of time to speak with Arthur on matters of the heart (and both their pasts) that he doesn't open up to anyone else about. Charles is a pillar of strength that Arthur increasingly relies on as his world falls apart, and the sheer tragedy of their relationship (even if you just interpret them as friends!) is heart wrenching. They are so evenly matched it's like they were made for each other.

PROPAGANDA:

There are too many instances of Noshir Dalal (Charles' actor) going online and playfully encouraging charthur fans and leaving suggestive comments under Arthur art, it's legitimately hilarious. Here's his twitter account if you'd like to take a mosey. ALSO. There were some "cut romance scenes" that the crew talked about a little bit but no details were ever released. Literally everyone and their mother were speculating about the Charles/Arthur potential. What we could've had..... Anyway. Charthur nation be upon ye

HONORABLE MENTIONS

CALAM AND KATIE ARE THE MOST BUMBLING LESBIANS I'VE EVER SEEN. They literally move in together as soon as Katie Brown comes to town and have a home makeover montage with a musical number called "A Woman's Touch". If there's a heterosexual explination for this, I don't want to hear it. Doris Day knew what she was doing.

I know it's cliche coming from a vampire-themed website with a dedicated Meat Shrine. But Hannibal Lecter and Will Graham in Bryan Fuller's hit 2012 NBC show Hannibal INVENTED romance. They're an old ship of mine and there's really nothing I can say abt them that hasn't been said a million different ways by my fellow freaks on tumblr. Still holding out hope the show gets renewed...

David (Solid Snake) and Hal Emmerich (Otacon) are the sweetest most compassionate motherfuckers in this entire batshit video game series. They spend years trying to undo the mistakes they made and the mistakes of their fathers, only so it can benefit a world that doesn't even know they exist. Their Philanthropy era must've been such a mess before they decided to raise Sunny together. I fucking love them.

Megatron and Optimus are one of those ships that are just a matched set. Wherever you've got Optimus, you've gotta have a Megatron. Almost every universe does this, and their rivalry is so suffused with intimacy that you really can't help but see the cracks where the hatred belies what can only be love and deep regret. Transformers: Prime does this best, but the new Earthspark series might just be up there with it. Robot warlord yaoi :)